While recently re-reading some chapters of Conversations with God, I was inspired with the question, “What does my soul desire?”
I immediately picked up my journal and started an automatic writing session, which is what I do when I’m seeking answers from Spirit. (But I don’t always do it immediately, so this was kind of a big deal.)
The words that follow here are exactly what flowed that day, and although I started the process thinking only about my soul, as the words came through I knew this was a message for all of humanity and meant to be shared with as many people as I could reach.
What my soul wants is to be free. To experience freedom in this human form. To experience having it and not having it, back and forth all over again!
What my soul wants is love. To be free to love people, humans, animals, stuff, fun – without limitation. To love freely. To love deeply. To feel fully. To see fully. To know fully.
What does any soul desire? The same. The specifics differ – what one is drawn to will be specific to the distinct characteristics of that instance of The I AM, but at its core each soul wants these things: Love, Freedom, Harmony, Peace. Each soul wants to be defined and yet part of the whole.
That last part implies a need for balance: One must be self-aware and yet not self-obsessed. To disconnect from others is to lose conscious awareness of the whole (and living through the whole). To isolate is to obsess over the separation. This is the domain of the Ego (obsessing on separateness).
To reach out in loving service, on the other hand, is to focus on the Oneness – the whole. And yet there are those who focus so much on the whole – or truly, the others – that they lose their sense of self. This is not the true experience of Oneness; rather, it is the Ego’s limited interpretation – more accurately said, failed approximation – of Oneness. The Ego cannot know Oneness (by design) and so it pretends to know and imagines what it might be like, just as it imagines what God or eternity might be like. But these truths cannot be derived by the Ego because they are experience-based, not knowledge-based.
The Ego can be informed about the Truth of Oneness only through the Soul’s (Heart’s) first-hand experience of it. To try to do it any other way is like trying to describe the color blue to a blind person: One can make analogies to other experiences, but the true experience of it cannot be conveyed second-hand.
As I was transcribing the passage I was really tempted to make some edits, because I believe it introduced some ideas that need to be explained more fully. But since I’m determined to maintain the integrity of what came through that day, I hope that instead this will start a conversation between us. What meaning do you take away from these insights? What questions do they leave unanswered for you? Please leave a comment below.
Shared with Love,
Christina, thank you for sharing your deep insights with us. The line that most resonated for me was “And yet there are those who focus so much on the whole – or truly, the others – that they lose their sense of self.” This is so true in the healing professions. We strive to be of service, giving so much to so many yet not making any time to give back to the self. This is something I will reflect on in the coming weeks. In the meantime, please continue to allow your light to shine brightly and without apology.
With appreciation,
Michelle
Thank you, Michelle, for taking a few moments to share what resonated with you.
Let’s shine together!
With Love,
Christina