All modesty aside, I am a really badass healer. Powerfully connected, insightful, and able to get tangible results.
The results that I’ve been able to help people achieve – such as freedom from systemic infections, autoimmune diseases, infertility, anxiety, depression, and countless mindset blocks – are because of the commitment that I’ve made over the past 20 years to understanding the human body and energy system.
My clients are often amazed at how simple I make it: “Oh, that lifelong problem that you’ve been struggling with? We just need to change X, Y, and Z in your subconscious mind, and give your physical body what it needs to heal itself.” And it works.
What those clients don’t see, though, is how hard I’ve worked to make it that simple.
There’s nothing altruistic about my commitment to learning everything I can about healing. Honestly, I didn’t do this work for anyone but myself. The fact that I’m able to share what I’ve learned to serve others is a really powerful side benefit – and exactly how my life was designed.
I grew up in an environment that looked great from the outside – roof over my head, food on the table, I was exceedingly smart and good at many things – but behind closed doors my life was often a nightmare. It wasn’t until I got to college and started talking about child abuse in one of my social justice classes that I grasped the reality of my childhood experience.
It never occurred to me that the spankings I was still receiving as punishment at age 15 weren’t normal.
It never occurred to me that the bond I felt with my family wasn’t love, but fear.
It was only as I became a healer and tried to grow my own business that I started to realize how walking on eggshells for my whole childhood had shaped my psyche as an adult.
Looking back, I see how this was the life that I chose from a soul level in order to accomplish my Great Work. If I’d been born into poverty, I wouldn’t have had the resources I needed to get where I am. I needed an environment that was physically secure but emotionally threatening, in order to generate a multitude of issues I would have to learn how to heal.
The reason – no, the WAY that I became such a powerful healer was by healing myself of all the effects of my childhood…
…the fear of criticism and rejection, the isolation, the constant fight/flight/freeze response active in my body that, as an adult, interfered with the big ambitions I had for myself.
The way that I became such a powerful healer was through my dogged determination to get out of my own way. I hated being so smart and so good at making plans but so terrible at following through on them.
Sometimes I got support from fellow healers, but more often I did the work on my own – out of stubbornness, for sure, but I think also because that was part of the plan, too. I’ve always loved solving puzzles, and figuring out the reasons for my own sabotaging behaviors was the biggest and best puzzle I’ve ever solved.
As I used energy healing to tackle my mindset issues, I noticed something else: Physical symptoms that I’d never seen a doctor about started to fade away.
Symptoms that resembled fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue naturally disappeared.
And over time, my personality radically changed. Looking back, I’m pretty sure I had undiagnosed borderline personality disorder. I was a fucking mess, and probably the same nightmare to be around that my mother had been when I was growing up.
Now, people compliment me on how peaceful I am, and how accepting, and well I hold space for others even when I don’t agree with them.
These breakthroughs have happened gradually over the last 20 years, with the most radical breakthroughs happening since I learned about and healed my Core Wound.
Every time I made another breakthrough, new clients would suddenly show up who needed the same breakthrough. Eventually I recognized the pattern and would get excited to see who would show up.
My breakthroughs right now are about maintaining deep inner peace (emotionally and physically, including my nervous system) so that I can experience profound states of grace and receiving. Once again, I am excited to see who’ll show up that also needs this.